It started off as tiredness but it turned into a full on bad attitude. My brother and his girlfriend had recently left for England, so there was a sadness that hung over the family. We were packing for the camping trip but I didn’t feel like helping. I wanted to be going on an aeroplane not some camping trip, I was obsessing over the smallest things and my anxiety was high. It always goes up when I leave the house.
So we started on our journey and Beth & I started playing guess the flavour of the jelly tot and planning some videos. She always has the best ideas, I was moany and couldn’t think straight. Anyway while we were playing I started laughing and having fun, slowly my mood started to lift.
Then I was catching up on some podcasts I had missed but saved for the longer car ride. This specific one was about having eternal focus and finding true happiness. I’m telling you all about this attitude of mine because I’m sure I’m not the only one who gets caught in the ungrateful and self focused spiral. So I get you, it happens but that doesn’t mean its right.
Back to the podcast I was listening to, this really worked in me because it reminded me even though I’m only focusing on the bad things, there is always Joy in Jesus.
I was so caught up in what I wanted that I wasn’t enjoying the family time. That’s when I realised I needed to adjust my focus, true happiness and real joy can only be found in Jesus.
When we start looking for other things to fulfill us, our attitude will keep getting worse and worse.
Jesus gives us a reason to smile.
That bad attitude needed to be covered in the joy of Jesus.