I realised a while ago that I wasn’t very good at this gratitude thing and thats where it kind of stayed for a while.
Everyone always tells you to be grateful, count your blessings etc. I hate to admit it but I drowned those kind of things out for a while.
Life is hard and I just didn’t feel grateful so I stopped making the effort to be actively grateful-bad I know.
But lately I’ve been challenged that I need to actually be pro active about this realisation of not being good at gratitude. I have a strange relationship with feelings, sometimes I just can’t connect to them because I am so numb so I’ve got to get out of my head and stop relying on feeling grateful to be the source of gratitude.
With life being so different to what I ever expected from a young age and this year particulary with the whole pandemic, its hard to see the light and be grateful.
I’ve been studying the book of Phillipians and wow is it challenging me. I need to get my attitude in order and get back to the source of joy-Jesus.
If Paul can be joyful and praise Jesus in prison then whats my problem.
I’ve also been challenged to more regularly express my thankfulness to God for His amazing saving grace and gift of eternal life. It’s not okay to take those gifts for granted ever.
Being far away from many of my favourite people in this season has really changed my perspective on how I need to value them more and thank God for them.
So I need to stop making everything about me and more about Jesus.
He is the provider and is the giver of these gifts. He deserves the praise no matter your circumstances. Hard one to live out practically but it’s one I’m working on.
Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows-James 1:17