Music has always been something God uses to speak to me. I could pray and then wait on a answer only to get a song stuck in my head or to hear a song on the radio. Today I’m writing about my testimony with music, so let’s start towards the beginning. Before I started going to church. I always said I believed in God. But that was it. As I got older somewhere along the way I stopped praying and never noticed. Around three years ago I think was when I actually listened to my first Christian song. I knew nothing about this genre or what it would be like or even where to start. I found “Drops In The Ocean” by Hawk Nelson and was confused because I was told Christian music was slow and boring and this was the opposite. Then I found “I Am Not Alone” by Kari Jobe and cried. I was in a bad place in my life when God used these two songs to speak to me in a way I would listen and understand. I learned that
1. Christian music wasn’t boring like i was told and
2. I wasn’t alone like i thought i was
We finally started going to a church my uncle invited us to. The only time I was in church was VBS when I was little. When we got invited to the youth group on Wednesdays I was nervous. I had social anxiety, low self esteem and I felt out of place not knowing a lot about God. As I started my relationship with God and I’ve listened to more Christian songs, mostly songs the worship teamed played, God continued to show me things through music. I remember a few monthes into all this I was having a bad time. I asked Him all these questions that I would usually ask myself. Then i found the song Beautiful by Bethany Dillion and sometimes I still cry when i listen to it. Music gives us words when we don’t know the words we’re looking for.
God continued speaking to me through songs. Two years ago my youth planned something called youth Sunday, where we took over worship and the service. I said I would play the piano for the worship and that’s it. Long story short I ended up singing two songs and playing piano for the other two. Stage fright was one the mountains God wanted me to get over next. I try and keep my problems to myself I didn’t want anyone knowing i had anxiety. But for one of the practices for this I had already played my two piano songs and it was time for me to join the other girls background singing.
I made it through the first but the second song I ran off stage because I couldn’t breathe. After i was “okay” again I was leaving the bathroom when the song “No Longer Slaves” by Bethel popped in my head. I didn’t think much of it until I got home that night. I realized He was using this song to speak to me. I remember it took a bit to think of what song it was because my brain just kept replaying “I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God” and the song was new and new to me.
Right before youth Sunday we would be at a youth conference called Fusion, on Friday and Saturday. My family carpooled with another family and we had to leave Saturday before it started but that’s another crazy story. We were there Friday night and that’s all I needed. Planetshakers was the band doing the worship and at the end they played “No Longer Slaves” by Bethel. It was such a God moment and it was the first time I lifted my hands in worship. When Sunday came God had made sure He got His message through to me. I went up there and sang, played, and recited my skit lines ( forgetting a line) even though I was scared to death I did it anyway and on the other side of all this I wondered why I made such a big deal.
God showed me He would walk hand and hand and deliver me through anything. He still speaks to me through songs and I love Him for that. These were some of the big moments God used songs to speak to me at the beginning of my Christian life. I hope God will use this part of my testimony to reveal Himself to you. Know that Christian music isn’t boring, you are not alone, you are beautiful, and you are no longer a slave to fear.
This post was written by Gianna as part of Music March.