More and more I am realising I am having this inner struggle with social media.
Everything about it shouts glorify yourself. The Instagram accounts I follow with the picture perfect Pinteresty pictures, I know I love the pictures but most of the time they don’t leave me feeling so good inside.
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You see I don’t have a photographer following me around like most influencers\content creators do, so these photos are impossible really. So on this trip I’ve had the constant war in my head between one side saying I need to make sure I get the perfect picture and clip for a vlog or the other side is saying I can choose to live in the moment and take random photos for fun.
But I know the pictures that do well on social media are ones with people in, yes they do look the best but it makes me feel uncomfortable inside when my feed is full of pictures of just myself when I’m trying to use social media to glorify God then why do I feel the need to keep up and post pictures of myself?
Now I’m not saying don’t use social media or post pictures of yourself.
I’m challenging myself to rethink the motives behind the picture and caption.
I am trying to teach myself that it is not about curating the picture perfect feed but to use real photos to share experiences and hope. So I’m thinking maybe I can share my love for God’s creation through my feed instead of the typical feed of loving yourself.
Through this trip I’ve had to let go of vlogging my days because then I’m not focused on enjoying my time and the question nags at the back of my mind, do I only wanted to make vlogs because everyone does i these days and the YouTubers I watch seem to have such perfect lives. Some days I feel this way and other days I just want to create content. I have to remind myself that I am doing this glorify God. (this is just a side ramble about my struggle with YouTube)
Some of you reading this may think I’m crazy having this struggle because it seems so stupid and unnecessary but others may be right here with me.
I have decided to focus on only two social media platforms instead of being overwhelmed by keeping up with so many. And trying not to care about the growth, rather enjoying connecting with others and sharing what God is teaching me.
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This post came out of a journal entry which I’d decided I’d share with as a kind of ramble because maybe it will connect with at least one of you.