I love to write and am constantly writing stories in my head. I love that social media has given me the courage to share those stories and thoughts with others. With everything I think about social media there are pros and cons.
Sharing things with the world can help encourage others and connect you with others but it can also make you lose sight of what God is doing and saying to you.
I started The Different girl over 3 years ago and I knew nothing about blogging or YouTube or social media, I had always wanted to write but hadn’t discovered this online space until 2016.
My brain runs a mile a minute and I want to share all these thoughts but getting things into real sentences is something I’ve always struggled with. I get so excited and passionate about the words in my head but they don’t seem to look the same on the screen or page.
I went fully into creating content flat out for 3 years, I grew a lot and learnt a lot, it was fun and hard at the same time. It didn’t grow like the experts said it would. I reached a point of confusion if I was supposed to keep creating. I stopped creating but kept consuming content. I then realised I need to consume less content so I’ve cut out Instagram for December.
With lots of people creating content now days and wonder if my space is necessary and important and struggle to not get caught up in comparison with is very hard with already low self confidence.I thrive on being different yet find it so challenging. I can feel inspired by others content but feel dragged down by it too and I don’t want my content to do that to others.
I want to feel a connection to the people who read or watch my stuff. I want to properly convey my thoughts. I want to feel confident in my myself and not fear what other people will think.
I don’t want to under plan or over plan where I get obsessive. I want this to be fun again. I want to glorify God.
With the increasing amount of people talking about slower paced lives and tech detoxes etc in the Christian online circles. I am inclined to follow that trend rather the ever so popular hustle culture but I struggle to navigate how I want my social media usage and creation to fit into all that.
Do I want to quit all together? How do I ease back in? How do I feel more confident with the content I creat?
I always want better a website when I look at someone else’s or a better editing for a video. I can never think of enough ideas to create consistent content and I don’t want to create without being consistent but consistency can lead to quicker burn out with creating. Do you see my dilemma?
I love social media but I also hate it 🤷🏻♀️ not sure what to do about it. Oh how I always wish for the simpler things in life but nothing does come easy and it wasn’t promised to be easy.
Confidence and clarity are lacking. Yet in it all He remains the same. He is good.